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Why I can Help You...

Carly Alyssa Thorne 

aka "Cat"

I have been continously asked why and how I am so positive, have this much energy, passion etc... So here is a bit of the why... 

Who is Carly Alyssa Thorne and how did she get here ???

The Journey Called My Life of SOS... to CAT.. 

Yes, this is LONG...  AND... If You Choose to take the Journey with me, I Promise YOU, you will have many Aha moments. You will GET the Reason Why I am all About TRANSFORMATIONS of the Mind, Body, and Spirit... and why I am so Passionate and live full out.

I will not be mentioning any full names or places to honor people's Privacy. I am THANKFUL AND GRATEFUL to a select few, yes few... that came to my side and helped me to find the Light in my time of need and much darkness...  You find out real quickly who your true friends are in the darkest of times.

This full bio is here to give you a a sense of who I am and why I can talk from a place of experience.  I feel, it is important to share one's story ONLY from the perspective that if I CAN DO IT, SO CAN YOU... 

NOT, for your pity, not to stay in the past, or dwell on it. I am Extremely Grateful for my Past, it has made me into the Strong, Compassionate, Healthy, Giving, Person I am today... I have chosen to share my story to EMPOWER others to BE THE BEST them EVER... and with the HOPE... That they will ALWAYS choose themselves... CHOOSE LIFE... 

I have been told by many Bosses, Friends, Ex's and More that I am:

 ***A cross between an amazing Old Soul Mind*** 

***An Angel Caretaker Heart***

***An old fashioned housewife with Zen*** 

***A Spirit with Spit and fire, minus the Scorpion Sting...

***Add a heaping dose of LOVE...

***A bit bull when I need to be, to get things done... 

***A Butterfly that is always Transforming... and ever evolving...

SKILL SET WISE: 
Keeping in mind I waa born in 1964 folks... I have spent the last 25 years wearing many hats at the same time so to Speak and have always been one to have MULTIPLE balls juggling in the air with grace, ease, and joy, and sometimes NOT with grace, ease, and joy...  I think it is the PRODUCER Energy in Me... Thankfully I learned to Embrace and LOVE the Concepts of sharing, collaboration, co-creating and TEAMWORK... That was a lesson that did take years in the making LOL... as the younger me when I started working right out of High School, was of the mentality that I was a lone island struggling against the current all by myself due to a lack of trust of others due to many experiences you will hear about below.

BUSINESS WOMAN:

***Consultant and Management

***Production Event Coordinator and Manager

***Producer, Director

***HR: Hiring, Firing, and Recruiting for Corporate.

INTUITIVE HEALER:

***Eastern and Western Ways Mentor

***Interfaith Ordained Schooled Minister

***Energy Healing and Intuit

***Bodywork of All Kinds

***Certified Personal Training

***Reconstructive Body Alignment Rehab

***Hospice Counselor

***Certified Life Coach

MEDICAL WORK: Western World of Medicine

***Certified Nurses Aide

***Certified Home Health Aide

***Certified EMT-D

***Certified First Responder

***Ambulance Core Chief 

***Private duty cases in ICU, CCU, and ER.

PLAYING:

***Singing, Dancing, and Modeling

***Writing and Editing

***Producing and Directing on both sides of the camera.

MATE and HOUSEWIFE:

***Love to Cook, Clean, and take care of Loved ones... 

***I am a pamperer, Hm...

***I think I was a GEISHA in a previous Life... LOL...    

So right now I am sure there are those thinking NO way she could have been good at all of those things and or successful at them.  I was a fighter, a survivor, strong, determined so yes, I actually was really good at my professions. I was Certified, Trained, had amazing jobs with Top executives, Companies, and People from all around the World. Did I have great testimonies and large salaries... YUP... Did I have my UP and DOWNS... YUP... Was I Passionate about all these things, Yes I was...

So now you are thinking OK, so what is the problem ?  HOW COULD I HAVE all of these things in one LIFETIME even maybe; at the same time and be HAPPY... HEALTHY... SUCCESSFUL... and ABUNDANT...  HM... Better yet the question WAS ???  How come every time I finally got everything back to together again and things were AWESOME... BOOM... There it would go again... I did say I had my ups and downs, I never said I wasn't good or successful at my professions, because I was, the PROBLEM was it would only last so long. 

One of the AHA's... 

My training would tell me I had a very busy monkey mind full of old outdated unconscious beliefs running around in there taking me out at a very chance it got.  Until we are truly willing to LET go and Surrender and CHANGE, Nothing will Change in our lives... We just keep repeating the same patterns over and over and over until we get so tired of living a certain way OR something HUGE happens in our life's to wake us up.  Ex. Car accident, illness etc.

What I am going to share with You is NOT Pretty...Yup baring it all, laying all the cards on the table...

However, in sharing my story others can see that anyone can Achieve, Overcome and become Anything and Everything they want to BE- NO MATTER WHAT... Ultimately, at some point and time in our life's, it all boils down to CHOICE...

WHO AND WHERE I WAS THEN to get to the present:

I was born in Yonkers, NY in 1964 with the birth given name of the initials of SOS... This was very symbolic of my childhood and my life growing up.  I was always seeking help, in trouble, confused, and dismayed with Life.  I had MANY health, family and relationship problems...TODAY, I wouldn't call them problems, Tough LOVE and lessons of self growth.

I left the United States when I was 5 years old and then went on to live in Mexico, Venezuela and Brazil until the age of 14. I returned to the U.S. in 9th grade of High School and from there Lived all over NY State, NJ and Beyond...

I am THANKFUL and GRATEFUL NOW for the Journey of much travel, Yet as a youth, I was angry, in crisis mode all of the time and Sooo NOT thankful. TODAY, all of that travel has made me an individual that is able to Ebb and Flow and adapt to any given environment or situation and to be able to THINK on my Feet... It has given me the respect and knowledge of the many different cultures and to acknowledge all Beings as individuals, yet the same on a Soul level.

I look at COACHING, MENTORING and TEACHING as one MUST come from experience to be able to truly help someone... and I mean Direct experience of the things they are Mentoring or Consulting about...

How can someone Help You about certain things unless they themselves have experienced similar issues ? Your experience is unique YES...  However, at least someone can Empath, Understand, if they themselves have experienced it, to their own degree. I am saying this because, as THANKFUL and GRATEFUL AS I AM for my LIFE... It was NOT by far an EASY path...  I look back Now and realize the PATH I CHOOSE, was my path of Strength, Understanding, and Compassion, for myself and others, and to be able to use my gifts to help others get out of their Maze of darkness as I did.

To CHOOSE Life, To Say YES, I am bigger than ALL of this... Everything has beauty, even within the darkness..  I grew up with severe Sexual, Verbal and Physical Abuse to the extend that at one time I was on Social Security Disability and had severe Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I went through years of treatment and was on many western medicines, even hospitalized over 4 times, twice for suicide attempts. I had repeated weight problems from Anorexia 95 lbs, which, with my frame- which is big boned, and athletic is not good, to bulimia and overweight of a breaking point of 200 lbs. I went thru this cycle 3x.

To add to all of this my mother had German Measles when she was pregnant with, and they told her to abort me because I might have this or that etc... She didn't Thank God, as I am here... And... I was very ill as a child so much so there are no baby pictures of me until I was a few months old. 

Me and my God Mother

Starting at the age of 16 entering into serious dysfunctional relationships... Leading to 3 Marriages to continue the abuse cycle from my childhood as I knew no different  and the 4th marriage which was beyond abusive to the point I almost died and my husband committing suicide.  WOW... NOW THAT IS A MOUTHFUL.. To top it all off. I was riddled with Medical Problems since I was born and I stopped counting after I hit surgery #17 for medical reasons all within 15 years. In total now 26 surgeries as of 11/2012 in a lifetime...

Further self study into the Mind, Body, Spirit connection and body memories would prove that some of this was MY attempt of removing the pain and memories from my body that was riddled with fear and pain all of the time.  My body created all sorts of problems medically- Severe Endometriosis, degenerative joint bone disease in all major joints etc... etc... etc... 

I am NOT saying they weren't legitimate surgeries they were for REAL things, and I almost Died, Numerous times...  One of my lessons in massively studying Western and Eastern medicine and philosophies is they both have a purpose and a place.  

I realized Years Later as I went thru years and layers of Self-Discovery and The Mind, Body, Spirit connection that I created the disease in my body... A way to Deal and cope with all of the Fear, Anger, Sadness my Inner Child felt... And at the time the Unwillingness to Truly Forgive SELF and Others for everything that I experienced, felt, went thru etc...

The Ultimate breaking of the cycle and AHA moment came when my late husband died- Committed Suicide in 1998. I HAD A CHOICE to make, DO I CHOOSE LIFE OR DEATH ??? Do I CHOOSE to let everyone blame me ??? Beat myself up... Feel Guilty, Kill myself ???

I smiled and Laughed a lot, I was Great at Facial Masks... I had always been the Healer, Healing others, picking partners that needed to be saved. I had never TRULY saved or healed myself though, until that one fated day, when  I finally CHOOSE ME...  I CHOOSE LIFE...

My late husband was my BIGGEST GIFT... I THANK HIM IMMENSELY FOR THAT GIFT OF CHOICE....and WAKING MY ASS UP... TRUST ME, when I tell you the CHOICE was not EASY... I had to stand Alone, strong, let go of old friends, family members, the STORIES... Stand UP to the Past, Stand up to Family members and STAND firm and CHOOSING ME... AND also take FULL RESPONSIBILITY for my Part in the allowing of the Co-Creation of it all...

I had to be willing to EXPOSE all the SKELETONS of the past, even my OWN demons, and errors.  I had to be willing to CHOOSE to face up to MY STUFF. Be willing to SHOW UP and NOT Care what others thought of ME in Sharing all of this... Hiding was NO Longer an OPTION for me... 

NOW AM I SAYING THAT I AM ALL OF A SUDDEN SAVED,  DONE... Of course NOT... I am still and will always be Evolving, Choosing, making mistakes along the way... THANK GOD... Who would want to be Perfect..

THE FINAL CHOICE POINT.... which I wrote the piece about myJourney

from 200 lbs. to 125 lbs...

THE CHAOS within and right before his death...Thankfully I Lost it all within 6 months, by doing the Following.

Click here to READ the Story on HOW I lost the WEIGHT

My other HUGE AHA, and Awakening to HOW truly PRECIOUS LIFE is and how short it can be was when I used to work at the WORLD TRADE CENTER... I was a Wellness-Fitness Consultant and Trainer... I was one of their specialized Medical trainers, meaning I dealt with the clients that had major medical issues.  I still have my locker keys... WOW... what a day... Talk about a wake up CALL...

I was on my way to work that day... My client had called the night before to cancel our session, choosing to take one more vacation day to relax at his beach house. SO.... I went to work one hour later because of that. I was at the train station when the towers got hit. Normally when my client cancelled in the past I would have still gone in early and had a good training session for myself... SO YES, I AM EXTREMELY THANKFUL AND GRATEFUL TO be Healthy, Happy and ALIVE...

SO HOW DID I DO IT ???

Well, first I had to make some HUGE life changing decisions. I had to let go of the People, places, and things that I was surrounded by that were negative and kept me bound to the things and experiences that supported my old outdated beliefs about who I was and what I could or could not have, Be and Do. And like I talk about in the other article I wrote, I am constantly Learning, Playing, and Growing each and every day... I Choose to be Around Positive, Happy, Healthy, Abundant People, Places and things...

One of my Fire walks.

I Listen, Read, take courses on things that EXPAND my Mind, Body, and Spirit... I Nourish myself with Positive, Inspiring, Spiritual People and things...  I have kept my weight off, yes I am human; and I have gone +5-10 or -minus 5-10... AND... have always brought myself back to sanity. 

I have good healthy Co-Creational friendships, The WORLD, The Universe is my Family... I Surround myself with Amazing and Inspiring Teachers, and Mentors, and just AWESOME SOULS all of the time. I surround myself everyday, every minute as often as I can with Positive, Healthy, and Abundant people and SItuations... And when I say ABUNDANT... I am NOT just talking $$$... I have HAD LOTS of MONEY... I have LOST LOTS of MONEY... AND I have ALWAYS Re-Created LOTS OF MONEY... Money ONLY Makes YOU MORE of what YOU Already are... If You were miserable before MONEY... More money is only going to  make YOU more miserable... My LESSON around MONEY was KEEPING IT... LOL... I was the ULTIMATE giver... Buying everything for EVERYONE, Yet Spent Little on myself... 

I also am a HUGE BELIEVER in Spending money on People and Global Issues now WHILE I am ALIVE.... I have NO NEED to die with HUGE Wealth, I want to See it Spent and Used while I am ALIVE to see the GOOD it is doing... And in the END... I am DEAD, I have NO Need to leave a LEGACY... or for the ESTATE to be fighting with Governments over Estate Taxes etc... People are always talking about what they want to be REMEMBERED for...  And I am LIKE... HOW about NOW ?

The NOW is WHERE We currently are... Of course I want to LEAVE this Earth-Planet better than I Found it... And, I want to do MASSIVE Good while I am Alive...

I CHOOSE TO LIVE MY LIFE WITH as much SPUNK, VIGOR, HAPPINESS, HEALTH and ABUNDANCE as I CAN... WHY ABUNDANCE ??? SO that I may GIVE a HAND UP, Educate, Mentor, and help thousands of people, and organizations- help them to get out of the maze of negativity, disease, and just plain LACK MENTALITY in all areas of their life.

So I am asking YOU: TO CHOOSE YOU TODAY... I AM ASKING YOU: TO CHOOSE LIFE TODAY... I AM ASKING YOU: TO SAY YES I CAN... Have it all...  Health, Abundance, Happiness and Sooooo much more... YOU CAN have BOTH AND... It doesn't have to be THIS or THAT... 

LEAP, DIVE, DARE, RISK TO BE THE BEST YOU EVER... WHAT YOU WERE BORN TO BE... 

YOU...

My Daily Mottos are: 
Let's Do it, Delegate it, or Delete it...  

Learning, Playing and Growing...

Creative Conscious Co-Creation... 

and Team work is what makes the dreams work....

And since I get asked this alot too, here are just some of my Credentials as I am ALWAYS.. 

Learning, Playing and Growing...

For a Full Resume Bio of Credentials and Work experience click on the below link:   

RESUME BIO

Thanks for taking the Journey with me. I hope in reading some of my journey, I inspired you in some way.

Have An Awesome, Amazing, Creative, Loving, Playful, Empowering, Inspiring, High Vibrational  Life... And... Teach, Give, Share, Empower and Inspire others...  Pay Your Gifts Forward...

To Hate or to Love, Forgive and Let Go...

I just got to Re-listen to the Radio Interview I was on at: 

"Paying it Forward"  Radio with Josephine Geraci on 9-12-12.

http://toginet.com/shows/payingitforward/articles/4139

And I had just 

posted this Pic on my Facebook Wall

And I had someone reply with:

 "Overall 100% I Am Agree With You. But Some Times Man Are Indispensable To Hate Some One Who Has Done Something Really Bad. There Are Some Sensitive Issues and Matters Which Are Not To Be Ignorable. 

But Overall I 100% Agree With You."

And I replied with:

Even when REALLY Bad things happen if you hate you are only giving ATTENTION, which most people that do hateful things want... You don't have to like, agree or even approve of an action that is bad and or hateful... You do have to LET Go, forgive self and others... I know first hand about hurtful and or hateful acts done to others... I just did an interview about it on Paying it Forward Radio... http://toginet.com/shows/payingitforward/articles/4139 

I would consider Rape, Abuse of any kind a Sensitive issue and I have been thru that and YET I don't HATE the people who did those things to me, at first of course I went thru Hell, Anger etc... and at some point one must be willing to let go or it will EAT you alive...

It was interesting to have just done this interview 7 days ago, and just re-listened to it, and just posted that pic and then got this reply which made me reflect on the interview which spurred me into writing a post about having hate for those who do hateful acts.

I have also posted other posts and pics about and talked about Energy and Vibration and what we focus on.  So, here are my views on the topic of hateful acts and or people who do them and or a society that is full of hate towards many for whatever reason.

As I said in my interview:  When violence has been committed I always tell my clients the following:  You don't have to forgive or accept the actual ACT of violence as being OK... You do at some point have to find a way to let go, forgive self and the other person for having done the act.  Some of you at this point are like WHAT ???  No way...

Now let me pre-frame what I am about to share and say with, this is my personal experience and my personal opinion...  You have the right to your own opinion and feelings and do not have to agree with what I am about to say.

From all of my own research and own personal experience with Sexual, Verbal, and Physical abuse what I have found through my years of Soul searching, conversations, counseling, healing, mentoring etc... is the following:

-It doesn't matter how rich or poor you are, where you live, or what color your skin is.

-Most people who commit violent acts of any kind have had violent acts

done to them.

-Most people who don't get the proper help to heal, process, forgive will go on to repeat the patterns of abuse to others OR abuse themselves thru various forms of behaviors: alcohol, drugs, sex, repetitive abuse relationships etc...

-The people that are protesting against killing of babies, war etc... with LOUD protests etc... are actually energetically vibrating no better than the people     doing the killing...

-There has been massive studies on Vibration-Energy-Sound

-I am NOT saying WE as a society are to be blind and ignorant toward what is happening around us...

-What I am saying is what we FOCUS on becomes our tunnel vision.  If I believe I am going to die and am constantly focused on negativity my life becomes all about death and negativity...

-I have had 26 surgeries from 1985 - 2012, been thru all sorts of hell and many, many times I wanted to just throw in the towel, say screw it, this, that and the other, yet no matter what I have always attempted even in the darkest of hours to have a glimmer of hope and still managed to be positive, smile and help others.

-I have found that the RIPPLE Effect is a powerful thing, and that if I worry about my OWN behavior and take responsibility for my own screw ups etc... and treat others around me with Love and Respect that tends to Ripple Out and affect others...

-I am no Saint, and growing up there were many times I screwed up, was angry, mad at Life, God, my Family, teachers who didn't believe me, the actual people who hurt me etc... etc.. etc... however at some point in life we all need to make choices on how we want to live, feel, act...

-Harboring all of that anger and resentment ultimately doesn't hurt the people that hurt You, as they usually like the attention or in their mind the power over you they have.  It only hurts You the person who was hurt.

-Another one I am a big believer in is not keeping SILENT about it out of fear, shame, or guilt etc...  that will eat you alive... and again exactly what they want.  I am also NOT saying play the martyr or use it as an excuse to play the victim... 

-You can't make anyone believe or do anything until they are ABSOLUTELY ready, willing and making that choice for themselves and not for anybody else.

-Standing up for yourself is a balance of reaching out and honoring yourself and reaching out and helping others to say  if I can and have... So Can YOU...

If each of us worried about how we treated Ourselves and others, we would have a very different world...  

Thus another reason why I am so passionate about doing this project

"Paying it Forward - The Ripple Effect"

Yes ONE person can make a difference no matter where you live, or how much money you do or don't have...  The Ripple Effect is a powerful thing...

Be willing to Forgive and Let Go...

Love Yourself...

Worry about how you choose to behave and treat others...

"We are the Actors/Actresses, Writers, Editors, Producers, Directors, Co-Creators of Our Lives, we can create anything, anytime... Let's Do it."  Carly Alyssa Thorne

Another Midnight Production - The Muses of ©Carly Alyssa Thorne

Copyright © Carly Alyssa Thorne  

CHOOSE YOU... Your Voice is Powerful...

SO- I got a lot of interesting and inspiring emails and responses to my blog article called:

WHO DO YOU HAVE IN YOUR LIFE THAT HOLDS YOU ACCOUNTABLE...

CHOOSE YOU... Your crap only defines YOU If you LET IT... AT some point YOU are going to have to CHOOSE what You want in Your LIFE and WHO YOU want to be... It is WHAT YOU DO with Your Past crap that matters... WHAT TO YOU CHOOSE ???

Addressing in particular my sharing of bits of my life, so the Link above is the whole article and I have put in " BOLD QUOTES" below the areas that I got quite a few emails on.  I felt it might be good to address some of it for EMPOWERING others to realize that YOUR Voice is a CHOICE...


"Now let me "PRE-FRAME" this with I was NOT born with a Silver Spoon in my mouth, in the way ONE would think, having had a father who was a High level CEO.  My family LIFE was more of a Disney "Cinderella" movie minus the happy ending... I have lived in Mansion's with body guards, drivers, maids etc... and I have lived in the middle of the jungle in an octagon, off of the land with an out house...  I have also lived strictly doing Barter.  

One of the things growing up overseas and going to MANY schools, traveling all of the time, being in a highly dysfunctional family which is an ENTIRE book in itself -did do for me was get me Clear on a FEW MAJOR KEY LIFE LESSONS and POINTS... which will tie back to the Speaker Industry and Courses and Integrity...

ONE- You can have all of the MONEY in the WORLD and that does not Guarantee: top Education, Health, a Happy, Loving home life, nor does it mean you are SAFE...

TWO- Adapt, Adjust, Absorb to everything and everyone. Be open to all points of views, Learn, Play and Grow constantly...  I learned a TON from my environment, all the different cultures, races, monetary levels etc... 

THREE- The biggest classroom and education is through actual LIVING and DOING, NOT just a formal education.

FOUR- You are Your biggest Asset... Fight for Yourself, advocate for Yourself, because nobody else will do it for You.  I am NOT saying be a LONE Island, I am Passionate about "TEAMWORK"- what I am saying is YOU need to Create Your Team, Your Family, Speak when nobody else will and get the Help you may need...  

Another PRE-FRAME... I am NOT advocating being Vocally Loud, protesting etc... I have learned that those that are LOUDLY screaming about Politics and this and that, Energetically are NO better than the people creating war etc...  

I PERSONALLY, believe what we focus on expands and that everything is Vibration thus we draw to ourselves that which we are vibrating AND... that it is a blend of environment, circumstance, paths, upbringing, family etc... 

HOWEVER... at some point if we don't take charge and accountability for OUR OWN lives, our pasts, our mistakes, circumstances, playing the VICTIM- the sick, poor, rape, etc... card will only serve to take you deeper into despair and hopelessness...  Not that I don't empathize or understand those positions and or feelings... I have been there... in more ways than one... Again another book...  So back to the Speaking Industry and Integrity..."

A FEW THINGS have always stuck out for me in all of my years of on going Choices, Empowering of self and others and on going Research.  I want to address some of the key comments I have heard others receive, and comments and or experiences I myself personally received, even from direct relatives... 


So let me share a bit more about what Judgement people go thru and why a lot of people DON'T get out, or get help...

***PREFRAME*** I will be SHARING MY PERSONAL Experience and my Personal Opinions...

I am not a licensed M.D., or Psychologist . I am a Transformationalist Life Coach, Interfaith Minister, & Personal Business Consultant and have studied Massively in all areas of the Mind, Body, and Spirit - Everything from Philosophy, Psychology, Theology, Nutrition, Overall Wellness, Fitness, Metaphysics etc... and have numerous Certifications to back that up along with my LIFE experience in the field since 1982 when I started working in the Medical Field that evolved into the Business, Metaphysical, Healing, and Wellness field.

So here are some comments that I personally have received and experienced from close friends and relatives and have been told by other clients, women and men of issues that they too had to deal with. AND... even with all of this said because I COMPLETELY understand... at SOME POINT You are going to have to CHOOSE YOU... So read on...

A.***You must have liked the abuse because, if it was truly that bad, you would have found a way to get out...  you would have left.

B.***You had a wealthy family, therefore You could have gotten the help you needed...

C.***Why didn't you say anything...

D.***Some people don't have a choice, they have no money, support and or education...

E.***If you don't have money or resources there is NO way out...

F.***Didn't you realize what type of person he was before you married him or got involved...

G.***What... I don't buy that for a minute, I have met him and he isn't like that at all, you are just worrying about nothing...

H.***Your family doesn't believe anything you are saying, and You are the crazy one...

I will address each one as briefly as I can, as the topic of any abuse is a HOT one and I do not want to stir up a hornets nest... I want to address some KEY buttons and share WHY "CHOOSING YOU" and taking charge and accountability for YOUR LIFE... is sooo important...

A*** First of all what most people do NOT understand about abusive situations is the MOST dangerous and violent times are when You are planning your escape and or are reaching out for help.  You know how when a Dog senses your fear...  usually the abusers sense when you are up to something, and become much more controlling and or are supervising your every move and or are have others watch you for them...  

An example: When my ex-husband was literally following me around and even verbally threatened a counselor at a church, that if she helped me, he would off her, or the one time, he said to me while putting a gun to my head:
"I will never give you a divorce, if I can't have you, nobody can... I will kill you, kill myself, and then burn the house down." 

B*** Ah... Yes MONEY can solve everything... NOT... Believe it or NOT having a ton of MONEY can actually HIDE and BUY a lot of SILENCE, so that nobody knows what is going on inside the compound... so to speak.  And... in my experience, when there is a lot of money or people are WELL known or famous they don't want others knowing they have problems and don't want to be embarrassed etc...  

An example: Putting their kids in a Private hospital so nobody finds out stating that their child was mentally unstable or had drug issues... Sending their child away...  Saying their child was asking for trouble they hung out with the wrong crowd and was promiscuous etc... etc... etc...

C***I Love this one... Why didn't you say anything... Hm... 99% of the time people have, and nobody believed them or if they did say anything they GOT in more trouble, because the parents felt embarrassed that they didn't realize something was wrong, or didn't want others to find out, or just where in plain DENIAL...  

An example: I once told one of my teachers in 4th grade some of the things that were going on and they went and told my parents and I was blasted, called a liar, and HOW dare I embarass them like that... 

D*** and E*** Economic status and having NO resources has no barring on Abuse... bottom line if You want something badly enough I don't care if you have to CRAWL, like a drug addict having to bottom out, when you get so sick and tired of being sick, tired, bruised, abused, and wanting nothing more than to JUST DIE... ONE DAY you will have to make a CHOICE... Living or Dying... at some point you will have to CHOOSE Living and YOU... even if that means taking a RISK SOOOO BIG you might Die and lose everything You are, have and more... 

An Example: I had been secretly for 6 months complying evidence on the abuse and keeping detailed dates, times and records and had to hide everything and took the risk of bringing it to a counselor I had begun to trust at a Church, and said to her one day, here is everything you need to know, if I don't wake up alive one morning, you will know why.  I won't go into major details here- except that resulted in me losing EVERYTHING, my house, all of my money, my family, friends and more... However I finally CHOOSE ME, I stood up for myself even though I knew the cost would be EVERYTHING and it was...

F*** Most abusers are MASTER manipulators and smooth talkers.
When I met my Ex... he was at the same job for over 18 years, his family was amazing, he didn't drink, I lived with him for over a year... Then I bought a house and he moved into my house and my Life as I knew it was no more... I was now in HELL if you will...

G***Again amazing manipulators... my friends thought he was AWESOME... they didn't believe for a minute he was following me around, or keeping tabs on me, or controlling every aspect of my life etc... The web of lies were amazing...

H***Family denial and You are crazy...  No way and if it is that bad, why don't you leave... You have always been picky, you are the one with the problem etc... etc....

In all of the interviews I have done with people of all races, economic statuses, counselors, Pastors etc... The most common themes are:
People are afraid, ashamed, embarrassed, don't think anyone will believe them, are in such depression, fear, despair.... they just give up etc... get stuck on the HOW to get away... WHERE do I go... WHO do I trust... I can't... Nobody believes me... etc... etc... etc... and I too felt all of those same feelings and had the same questions...  

And at some point... You will have to Choose... 

LIFE OR DEATH...

Which do you Choose ???

Be willing to RISK Everything...

Be willing to FIGHT for yourself....

Be willing to say I don't care what others think....

Be willing to reach out and trust someone...

Be willing to NOT know how...

Be willing to have nothing...

Be willing to go where you have never gone before...

Be willing to LET GO of everyone and everything that NO LONGER

serves YOU...

Be willing to Run, Walk or CRAWL if you have to...

Just CHOOSE YOU....

You are worth it...

Others are waiting for the gift of YOUR Voice...

Your Unique gifts, your unique wisdom you have to offer the world...

We all have a Past...

We all have had issues...

So what...

Who cares...

If You aren't willing to put it all OUT there, the skeletons will come back to

haunt you...

Be willing to be HONEST...

Authentic...

Use your story not to become a LABEL... a statistic...

Use it to EMPOWER others...

To say YES You can...

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